Saturday, March 28, 2009

SHOW & TELL - ICE LAND OF INFERTILITY

Kev and I enjoy exploring;, however, our grown-up lives don't exactly allow for extended adventures the way they used to. Before we both had careers and before the stain of infertility was spilled onto our seemingly blissful marriage, we knew how to throw caution to the wind and let the spirit of travel take us where it may. Some of our previous adventures include a three month hitchhiking trip across Mexico and a six week exploration of Italy. Now, our adventures are more like tiny jaunts to local spots. If we happen to have a free weekend, we might grab our atlas and find some place nearby to "explore."



These photos were taken last year on the Kaw River after the last big freeze in our area. Before I snapped these, we sat in awe watching seven bald eagles soar and land in the tree line high above the water. Despite the accumulated ice on the river, the water rushed by the frozen spots at a speed that was, at times, a bit frightening as I stood on the bank and contemplated nature. What makes some of that water stop and freeze on the banks while the rest of it carries on down the channel?



Lately, I have felt like this ice. I am frozen in time and progress as the fertile world rushes by like a river fighting the pause of winter. I watch as my friends and co-workers, nieces and nephews discover life-changing news, hopefully anticipate nine months, and welcome a beautiful miracle into their lives. And they should. And I'm happy for them. I only wish I could jump into that same water with them and enjoy my own ride to parenthood.

But I am stuck in the ice land of infertility.

More show & tell...

16 comments:

Lollipop Goldstein said...

The images paired with the words were incredibly moving. I hope you thaw and start racing soon.

We have Angel Wings said...

I'm stuck in the ice land of IF with you. I hope that we can both thaw out soon.

Thinking of you and sending you ((hugs))

one-hit_wonder said...

I'm stuck there with you, too.

xxx

'Murgdan' said...

Wow. What a great comparison, and incredible pictures too....I hope things thaw soon.

Lori said...

This is a beautiful post. I remember that place, that frozen, cold place.

Kristin said...

Wow...what a powerful image.

JuliaS said...

Okay - so Kristin stole my comment quite literally verbatim!

Love the pictures - quite amazing.

Another Dreamer said...

Powerful images, and great post. Very thought provoking. I feel like that ice often too.

Karen said...

I hope your big thaw is very soon. Hugs.

Find joy in every journey said...

Great analogy. I don't like being in the ice, heres hope for a spring thaw!

infertilityrocks said...

Beautifully told. I hope that your journey to parenthood thaws soon. Spring is here! It's time!

Beautiful Mess said...

Beautiful pictures. I hope you thaw out and are rushing down your own path soon.

Parenthood For Me said...

the pictures are beautiful. I am very jealous about your trip to Italy. I lived their for a semester in college and would love to go back. It is so difficult watching everyone else move on to that next step in life. You deserve the same happiness.

Taylor said...

Pretty pictures. Sorry you feel stuck. The ice melts eventually though and flows with the water. It takes a while but it makes the journey sweeter.

cysteract said...

You photo's are stunning! ..I'm hoping for sunshine and a thaw for you soon.

WiseGuy said...

A hugely moving piece...what really decides how some water freezes, while the other flows, and the corollary to ttc couples having mixed luck at babies, is a such an idea!

I don't even know where I am right now!

 
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